Eternity

It has been over 2 months since the "incident" and I am amazed at the progress we've made. Aaron & I have two more sessions of marriage counseling scheduled. A lot of our appointments have been mostly just listening while the counselor talks. He is always telling us how much he loves talking with us, because we're the "perfect" couple. He has said that we're a lot of fun and he rarely has couples that make so much progress in so little time.

My parents celebrated their 40th anniversary this month, too. On Saturday September 10 my siblings all came out (with spouses, of course) and all my nieces & nephews were there. My sister had this AMAZING plan to have the grandchildren sing a few songs to my parents. It was adorable. I played the piano, and my SIL took video (I have GOT to try and get a copy!) The spirit was so strong, my parents are amazing people. They raised 4 kids that all got married in the temple. All the boys (including son-in-laws) went on missions. We are all still active in the gospel. When I saw them enjoying the family time, I couldn't help but think that one day, Aaron & I would be there. We will celebrate many anniversaries together, and I look forward to the time when we are both retired, and our grandchildren can come for sleep-over parties. I want to grow old with him. Who'da thunk that after the "incident" on the fourth of July? I sure didn't expect it.

Two weeks ago, we finally had a big "issue" come up in therapy. The counselor was so excited, it was quite comical. I have a friend that is single and we like to get together sometimes. Sometimes dinner, or a movie, just "girl" time. Aaron was jealous of the time I spend with her, and I was having a hard time understanding it. We talked about how we both felt, and kind of agreed to disagree. It didn't come up again after that session, until we returned the next week. The counselor asked about the "previously discussed issue",


I told him I was confused at Aaron's jealousy, so the counselor asked him to try and explain his feelings. Aaron pointed out that when I am angry with other people (especially this friend), I forgive very quickly, but when Aaron hurts me, I "hold on" to it longer (I don't see it that way, but this was how Aaron felt). The counselor asked "why do you think she does that?" Aaron said "because there is more invested in OUR relationship than in any others she has." I actually got teary eyed at that, I realized how TRUE it is, and how much I am in LOVE with the man I married over 12 years ago. The counselor asked how I felt about what Aaron had said, and I tried to regain control of my emotions as I said "it just makes me love him even more!" They were both surprised at my reaction. It's amazing how the love we share can still grow.

I'm not sure how it came up, but eventually we were asked if either of us had ever lost a loved one to death. It brought back a flood of memories. Remember, I had already gotten "teary-eyed" in this session. Aaron's dad passed away June 28, 2009 (heart disease) and 3 weeks later on July 19 my brother's wife passed away (cancer). I had forgotten how hard that summer was. I forgot how much I love and miss Glen & Julie. I am not sure what this has to do with anything, but I just felt I had to blog about that. I am so grateful for eternal families. I am excited to spend eternity with the man I love, and to see our loved ones again. What would life be like without that knowledge?

I love my eternal family. We are stuck(y) together FOREVER and I couldn't ask for anything more.