You Never Know

I posted about a friend I may have lost because I gave Aaron "another chance". I am OK with that, because I am the one that has to answer to Heavenly Father about this, and the decision is between me, God, and Aaron. Nobody else's opinion matters. Though it is nice to have the support of friends, it's not necessary. All I need is my family and my faith (not my daughter lol)

I was chatting with a friend about the situation. I know that things could have been much worse, and I have heard of much worse situations than ours. I still really wish I had taken action sooner, that I hadn't let things get "so bad" before I told Aaron I didn't trust him. Abuse is never OK. Even if you don't think it's "that bad" or you think somebody is strong enough to handle it. I should have acted sooner, my telling him not to come home, (thanks to my friend telling me to stop making excuses) made all the difference. DON'T WAIT to do something about abuse if you hear about it.

People say "I'd never let that happen to me" but you know, I said that too. I was in a bad relationship in high school. He told me nobody would ever love me after what he had done to me. He belittled me all the time. I was never going to let that happen again, I always said I was "too strong" to be in another abusive relationship, or that "I knew better". I had learned my lesson (I thought). You can never understand this unless you've been there yourself. It sneaks up on you, and before you know it, you're going through H-E-L-L, and it's not necessary. There is so much help available. Luckily, I didn't have to take advantage of any of these things, but I know it's out there.

Aaron and I have had some very long discussions since the 4th of July. He pointed out how slowly Satan can get you. How one day, you're just "too tired" to pray or read your scriptures. Then, it gets easier and easier to avoid. Eventually, you don't want to go to church. You start using bad language, and before you know it, he's got you so far in the darkness you think you can never get out. But, thanks to our bishop's words of advice Aaron found a way out of that darkness. I know he was literally fighting off devils. He finally realized he was losing his family. He is so much better than he ever was before. (though I don't recommend going through H-E-L-L to become stronger)

I love you Aaron. You amaze me, and inspire me every day. I am so thankful for the people that support us, but more than anything, I'm glad we were both raised with values and morals. With a faith that helps us get out of the darkness.